Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Chapter 3 - 04-26-11

Things have been going well since I last published my itty-bity rant. Chalk it up to the hormones still regulating, but whatever... Ive decided its not worth it to be negative. it rubs off on everyone, including Addison... and thats something i never want her to feel...depression.
SO i saw a doctor. Im getting the help i need with the overwhelming feeling with having everything come at me all at once. so far, so good. I have my moments, but hey. Who doesnt? I will share this about it. seeing someone to talk to and getting the help necessary is a good idea, ONLY IF YOURE WILLING TO MAKE IT WORK. ive been though the ringer about all this pre-baby, and it fell through because i denied thinking i need help. but here's my dirty little secret. ive come to realize im not wonder-woman, zooming through the air handling the giant sea-beast with a whip of my hair and a smile. i need help. wether that be by talking about it to someone regularly, or seeing a doctor to handle the anxiety. or a combniation. its whats best for me, my daughter and everyone involved in my life.

IN OTHER NEWS> Im saving to buy Addison a crib and the trimmings of the set i fell in love with. All i need is to actually be able to save. [never been good with that sort of thing but im working on it okay?] Its A-dor-a-ble. Everyhting i wanted when i was pregnant. ANd if i estimate correctly, i should have it my the end of May. Which is perfect timing, seeing as addison's pack and play, [what im currently using as her bassinnet] is not going to hold up too much longer. shes nearly half a pound from the weight limit on it, so even if i cant get the bedding and trimmings for the crib, i need to have the crib at least ordered in the next two- two and a half weeks.

Im thinking about going through the clothes she cant wear anymore and donating them or selling them to a resale shop. but i dont wanna let go of my favorite outfits i have of hers... and its a waste to just throw them away. THERE ARE SOOO MANY CLOTHES> i dont even have a single drawer in a large three-drawer dresser for my clothes. my little fashionista.

speaking of organizing, i should probably get a head start on re-organizing my room. spring is here... meaning i need to de-clutter from the events of winter.[having a baby and the slew of baby clothes involved.] plus my form of spring cleaning involves doing three things: 1) going through the clothes and separating whats what, 2) moving furniture [I'll save that for daylight hours as to not wake the household], 3) making wishlists of what i want for the summer [like the bedding set and decor for addison]
^^basically wishful thinking to keep me positive. and anyone who knows me knows i do these three things in random order. My life= random chaos. the way im used to it, the way ive been raised, the way of life ive come to know.

but forreal. its 2 a.m. and Addison will be up in < if not eaqual to 4 hours.

GoodNight Moon :]

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